oh man..neva felt so slpy in a long time...went to skol dis mornin wif my eyes half open...haha...din realie slp last nite...was thinking abt stuff...evaluating myself...n my life...found out tt i've practically done nth lately...nth constructive...i practically hv been veri useless...juz slacking ard all e time...feel useless man...

i dun wanna feel lidat....hate dis kinda feeling...when there's sumthing there is to be done...no mood to do...or xin qin bu hao...den slack...n slack...den look back n discover tt i havent done a thing...not at all...wasted my time awae...seriously feel like a useless blob...can't find a word to descirbe how useless i feel...^shrugs^...

wads wrong wiff me???wake up charlotte...tts wad i alwaes tell myself...can i not be such a slacker animore?...slacking ard wun get me aniwhere...it'll juz land me in deep shit...i realie feel tt i nid to wake up...to buck up...start REALIE studying...stop slacking...i hate myself now...alot...a slacker hu's results sucks...life sucks...n all...juz realie useless...

aniwae...back to 2dae...yupp...den so went to skol veri slpy...slpt during bio...and during lit test...my lit test gona fail...tts 4 sure...din do e last question...felt so slpy tt i din do e last ques...juz slpt...4 35min!!! i din do finish my test ppr...instead..i slpt...like wads wrong wif me lor...slping during a test n not finishing my ppr...+dissappointed wif myself+ aniwae...gona fail...den 2 dae oso got back chinese ppr...failed it...again...[sigh] den my ting xie once again...got zero...oh well...used to it le....i basically now veri useless...i'm not doing well in my studies...neither am i doing well aniwhere else...basically veri useless...-haiz-

aft skol met grace at her hse there...got her to get up e bus so tt i din hv to get down...hehe...she came over awhile...but soon had to leave...to meet kor kor n sum other frenz to watch concert...actualli had a letta 4 her...but she left in such a hurry tt i din get a chance to pass 2 her...oh well...i guess i nid to re-write...cause got sumthing muz 2dae read den valid..haha...letta oso got expiry de...nvm...i shall redo it soon...den pass to her...

feeling down n depressed 2dae...hope tmr will b a betta dae...but i doubt so...got ndp at HQ tmr...330pm...so cannot meet darling le...*sobs*...oh well...she tmr oso busy...got bball interhse thingy...