went to skol at 1015 today....
had eng lesson...in class....
den got sS at ehall....
let off at 1+...
den dear guihe finally decided to go dentist....
tt pig, hide frm dentist so many yrs liao....
finished her appt at abt 2+...
den we cabbed down to eat daohuay....
hee...yumm....
but too bad got no cold daohuay....
so i had grass jelly instead...
den bought mushroom soup frm 7-eleven...
gui bought sardines....
went gui hse watch dolphin bay....
in e end, i fell aslp on e sofa...
lolz....
left gui there abt 430...
now i'm home!...lolz...

chinese O's man...
over...itz all over...
can relax abit bit liao...finally...
was so damn nervous dis morning...
went to skol,sorta saw bigONE crying...aww...
guess everyone's scared n worried...
aft e ppr was abt 1230...
first time i write so damn long for my compo n letta lor...wrote 412 for letta and 506 for my compo...so proud of myself...haha...
den me n gui were contemplating whether to start studying real hard frm now on, or totally throw away our chinese...lolz...can throw away cos itz all over...hv to start studying real hard now,cos might hv to re-take...lolz...
aniwae, aft ppr went heartland wif gui eat thai express...den we went to get my dark choco M&M...den decided to go J8...so went back gui hse,let her take money...den we headed there...shopped ard..gui finally bought her pouch...slacked ard...
reached back home abt 5...

reached home at 12 plus yday...
ltr gg gui there study...
tmr's chinese O's!!!
omg omg...
aniwae, abt yday...
reached there..met up wif jiejie..den ate abitbit..den took pics...
while taking pic wif coreen,eric kor appeared..scared tiok me..lolz..so in e end,3 of us took tgt..[lidat betta,den dun hv contrast btw me n coreen's color..lolz..]..yar den went beach wif jiejie..sat there alone while jiejie n her bf walked away..sat awhile..den walked back..chatted wif jeffery kor..den was deciding whether to walk to take bus bac or wat..den e guys concluded tt i took 3 steps to walk 1m..so wld need 3000steps to get to e bustop..so mean lor can..lolz..den went bac to e chalet to cut cake..den eric kor n i sang b'dae song for both coreen n her fren[hu was in e nxt door chalet]..cos we were sitting in e middle...so funny can...haha..den wanted to start a cake fight..but it din continue..so not fun can..den eric kor n i tried feeding e lil kittys but dey din wanna eat..onli smell smell nia..haha..in e end,waited for e majong ppl to end den go home..meanwhile,eric kor n i went walk walk..den we walked to e car first..i slpt in e car,all e way hommie...[pig..lolz]

off to go gui's hse...

today gg chalet...
coreen's 21st b'day...
at east coast there de...
dunno if i'm looking forward to it...-haiz-
well, at least i'm supposed to...
okay...
gotta go get rdy liao....
dun wanna be late....
happy birthday COREEN...!!!...

yday was "eat wif ur family" day...
ate at sum new seafood restraunt at YCK...
food was super nice...
people there supre nice too...
so hlpfull...
mummy n i concluded cos dey realie too free...lolz...
aniwae, had lobster...yumm....
and toufu..nice...
and mussels...
and noodle...
and vegie...
i din eat much tho....
[sigh]
no appetite...

i got my reg no for O's liao...
i'm 24410168...
lolz...
chinese O's is on monday...
which is like 2 more days....
i'm like so scared....
omg omg.....

i have 3 more days to my chinese O's...i bloody hell am not ready larh...
but i'm improving tho...gimme abit bit more time,i'll do well...
had 3 mock exams so far...
mock exam1: 12/80
mock exam2: 28/80
mock exam3: 41/80
so proud of myself...hee...but not too sure if i can reach my target for O's lei...-haiz-...
believe it or not, my target for my O's is at least a B3..if possible, an A2...hee...pretty high a target for a failing student i noe...but i think i can do it lei...juz tt normally dun put in tt effort into chinese nia...lolz...
shall study real hard for e nxt 3days...onli 3more days and all dis will be over...
preservere...i shall...*smiles*...
i'm gona make chen laoshi proud of me...-grinz-...
[ok...i'm dreaming agn..lolz]

i have officially passed all my subs for mid-year...(except amath tt is...)...haha...i have given up on tt sub liao...shall juz concentrate on e others....yup...
so afraid of chinese Os dis monday...i'm like not prepared larh can...sumbody hlp me...sumbody push me...-haiz-...i need more time....
nowadays got no mood to study...at nite cant slp,morning so dazed....i'm so not myself these days...i hate e person i am...such a slacker...

i told gui smth...
i dunno wat made me do it...
i think it was juz a slip of my tongue....
but i told her...i actually did.....
oh gosh....
nvm...ignore...

okay...my results...
rather sucky..but i guess got improvement...
english-55.3%
chinese-53%
math-49.3%
amath-10.6%
comb.sci-54%
geog-59%
i gotta buck up man...i wanna do well for my exams...i wanna do betta den *ahem*...haha...i think onli korkor n gui noe hu *ahem* is...lolz...

i hardly slpt...i tossed n turned...cried myself to slp in e end...

okay...
i juz realised tt my dear mummy,shanice....
put a solo pic of me on her blog...
*screams*
oh my gosh....
dis is bad bad bad.....
-haiz-
lolz...

went sentosa yday...
wif dyL..and korkor..and shanice..and jerome..and laypeng..and 3 more ppl...
yup...
met dyL and korkor at serangoon mrt..
den met jerome at habourfront...
den came shanice,1 hr plus plus late...hahaha...
aniwae....den we set off for sentosa...
sat cab in,shanice treat....cos she late...haha...
went siloso...
sat ard...tanned abitbit...
korkor n dyL played bball....
jerome,shanice n me sat ard...
den korkor,shanice n me go buy drink....
went to 7-eleven...
we walked there...and took a bus back....
den while shanice n me were at toilet,korkor tanned...
saw her lying there,den shanice took foto...
haha...
den we had lil foto session...
den korkor,dyL n me went for a dip...
shanice cldn't go in cos her bottom was loose....
den 3 of us swam to e island there...
got seawater into my eyes...damn pain....
den we sat there for quite awhile...
nice place to slack i wld say....
water nice n shallow,yet not too shallow....
can sit there....
played abit...korkor n dyL bully me....
*sobs*
haha....jking...
was fun...lolz...
dyL was trying to get black stuff off my face n i kept drifting away....haha...
i lay on e water and started drifting too...
haha.....
currents were rather strong...
dyL was getting hungry n weak....
so we headed back......
den i buddied korkor's leg into e sand...
den got alot of sand stuck to her cos she wet...
haha...den she kick sand to me too....
den kick here kick there....
den i burried dyL's leg too....
den she started chasing me ard wif a handful of sand....
*screams*...haha....
den i got all sandy all over and had to go wash off agn at e shore....
dyL was feeling guitly and went wif me...haha...
den korkro,dyL,shanice n me went to bathe den went billabong...
aft tt went saké...
shanice treat a lil....haha....
den wanted to head back...
but e bus din come....
so we walked all e way to e other end to take bus.....
on e way,korkor was trying to take e bball frm me....
haha...luffed alot...
took e bus...den went to e visitor center cos korkor n dyL need to go hand in pic...
den took e bus outa sentosa...
took e train...
korkor n dyL stopped at DG...
shanice stopped at kovan wif e to meet mummy


shanice has becum my mummy...and dyL's my daddy...and korkor's my nanny frm indonesia....haha...funny huh...i've becum e baby of e family...haha...lolz...

the pL walk-a-jog...


woke up like super earli today...reached skol at 615...*yawns*
did sum ban-ing of mineral water...
den set off to ECP...
apperently,ms ho let us go to wrong place....
dropped us at finishing point when we are like starters and start markers....
den sat ms gan and mrs tan's car to starting point....
quite slack larh....
nth much to do...
juz hold e start banner.....
make sure everybody start properly....
aniwae,i saw hannyah today....
my buddie....but she din rmb me.....
oh wells...nvm....
den we walked to e start point.....
we carried e banner and all e bags....
cos e tchers din wanna carry em wif them even tho dey were gg to take car.....
wth...
so idiotic....
aniwae....we had fun gg there....
we were singing...and fooling ard....haha...
den slack sumore...
den dismiss liao.....
gui,hazel,clara and me went parkway....ate pastamania....met soo and heidi and simin and joee there...den we walked ard shopped ard...den took bus dwn town...walked at topman...hazel n clara went meet mum...den went fareast wif gui...took neos...i bought a chocolate filled churrio....itz SOOO NICE !!!!.....so man zu...haha...den took 132 wif gui...thot of gg sit swing wif her...ut figured itz dumb to go there n cum back...so decided to cum home...

i lurrvvve chocolate filled churrio.....yumm.....-grinz-....

today got chinese mock exam....
there i go slping again...
b4 recess was P1...
slpt awhile b4 starting...
den had recess......
den got P2....
slpt for half hour b4 starting to do....
*smiles*
tts me....
so pig...
actually oso not i want de...
juz tt veri tired....
-haiz-


tmr hv to go skol by 0615....
so earli larh can....
normally at tt time i still in lala land sia....
too bad,wat to do....
i am e starter for tmr's walk-a-jog....
hv to meet e tchers in skol....
well.....
cant wait 4 tmr....
gg out aft tt.....








countdown:::::11days to chinese 'O's...

haven been here in awhile...
shall juz skip everything b4...and start wif today...
actually i got nth to say...
i juz feel stupid....
i am stupid....
i hate myself....
i hate my wrld....
i wanna juz leave....
i am e stupidest person on e face of dis earth....
silly n brainless....

day FIVE
biology and math...
math was rather sucky...went st8 to e drawings n graphs first..completed everything...happi happi go back to e front..den juz do lor...reach those hard de,i juz skip..thot can go back aftwards...den aft i finished e ppr...checked my graph...realized tt i got one point wrong...and it cause my entire thing to be wrong...den had to re-do it...nutz man...i rushed thru it...in e end panic like siao sia...eventually no time to go back n do those tt i skipped...damn it man...if i din hv to re-do tt graph,i wld hv time to go back to re-do...wasted 20min...[sigh]...
dunno if i'm gg to pass...hope i can do well tho...+fingers crossed+
aft brk was biology....
first few questions dunno how to do...abit demoralizing....-haiz-...den juz do n do...think i did rather fast....slpt abit halfway while doing e "either;or" question at e back....was tired....slpt for abt 15min...den got up to complete e question...den flip thru agn...filled in every single blank...even if dunno,oso try to crap in sum ans....haha...
aft e ppr when we were outside...ahbu n ying were toking abt dis ques...but it sounded alien to me...i din see tt ques at all...i'm like so dead...dunno if i missed out a ques,or a whole pg...-haiz-...dunno larh..all over le...

day FOUR
add.maths and chinese...
why e hell muz e skol put 2 of my worst subs into e same day...like which one shld i gif priority to study???...*screams*...so stressed...
once again...i conclude tt i simply suck at math...i'm like clueless abt amath...look at e ppr den i juz blur diao...dunno how to do lor...i'm so pissed wif myself...cant take it animore...i'm such a disappointment...i think i left out so many blanks tt e teacher can juz st8 away fail me...-haiz- i hate myself...think i wasted alot of ppr juz handing in e question number...[sigh]
aft brk got chinese....
went in and started on e comprehension...knew i wun be able to do e front aniwae...did both my comprees...took my time...slowly do...still had abt 45min...den went on to do e front...onli wrote 1 wrd of e "tian xie han zi"...den did 2 "zao ju"...finished up e rest of e mcq...den did e "cloze"...dunno oso anihow tikam....[sigh]....handed up my ppr wif 18marks of blanks...oh wells...at least i'm happy wif my compree.....but dunno if i will pass...muz see my oral n my compos...+fingers crossed+....

day THREE
pure goeg and chemistry...
great...din bring my specs to skol today...feel so empty n blind...haha...
geog is supposed to be like my best sub...in e end,i think i will do rather badly for it dis time round...guess itz partly my fault huh...nv study hard enuf...i noe i cld hv studied harder...but i din...if onli i put in tt lil effort to study abit more...i think i wld score...juz cos i din study,i'm gg to do badly...look at e ques,my mind was blank...i simply crapped my way thru...din realie noe wat to rite...juz crapping...trying real hard to fill up e pg...damn stupid...-haiz-...i'm disappointed in myself...hate myself for dis...aniwae...stubbins mistook eunice for e C2 ppl...den thot she was cheating...and almost screamed at her...scared me...she juz snatched away her ppr lor...den when eunice say she pure geog de,still got time...she was like so apologetic...her expression was so funny...haha...
aft break was chemistry...another bad paper...like i look at e ppr i noe itz easi lor...den i din study enuf...again dunno how to do...e ppr is like damn easi lor...but juz cos i din study,i dunno how to do...all e ans are like so straightforward...but juz tt i din study enuf so i dunno my facts...wL...damn pissed wif myself today...how idiotic can i get...argh...like dey can ask, wat is e other state of matter besides liquid n gas...so itz like even pri skol kiddies noe itz solid can...den e whole ppr is like all onli to regurgitate wadeva we memorized...den i nv study hard enuf!!!...*screams*...when e ppr ended,everyone was complaining tt dey din study hard enuf...
-haiz-..

went hrtland wif gui aft skol...went to buy prezzie for vic...apprently itz her b'day tmr...yup...now i'm back home...waiting for gui to come over,den we can study tgt...den ltr go tuition tgt...-haiz-...sianz man...i'm tired....

day TWO
maths and social studies....
first time do exam in hall...so exciting sia...so many ppl...seated in the cold,cold...hall....math was ok i guess...din realie hv to rush thru e ppr...wheneva i met ques tt i din noe,juz skip....last time i wld alwaes juz stone there...dis time,i skipped...haha...smarter way i guess...den juz went thru e entire ppr...den aft finished everything,den went back to those i dunno how to do de...17marks of blanks at first...den i went back to e "circles" ques...i juz noe tt i can do tt ques...so i stared at it for quite awhile...finally got e solution...so proud of myself...haha...can still rmb wat dyL thot me last time...looks like i'm not THAT dumb aft all...haha...or so i thot...den did a few others...den got sum is anihow hantam de...like cum up wif sum stupid logic of my own n put in???...haha....but when check wif ying dey all like correct lei...hehe...eventually handed in e ppr wif 10marks of blank...abit worst den MX...she got 9marks of blank...which is quite comforting btw,cos she's good at math...haha...
aft break got Ss...stupid man...no time lor...rush thru like nutz...and i stupidly did source-based first...damn...did 3 ques at source-based den went on to essay...tried my best to crap my way thru...all e topics like not veri familiar to me...so i did senior citizen stuff...see eunice besie me rite to much i oso stressed...see julia even more die...she write so damn fast lor can...den i like nth much to write de...so scary....den wrote abt slightly les den a pg for 1st essay...den 2nd one got one pg...siao larh....i'm like so gg to fail...den left like 3min larh...i still got e last source-based haven do....tts e longest sumore...den i was contemplating whether to do it or check my work...den i decided to do it...wat heck...den juz scribbled wat i cld...hand pain like siao man...in e end i amazingly managed to write out 3 para....like woah larh...haha...aniwae i still think i'm gg to flunk tt...

okay...
day one
english n literature today....
i'm so amazed wif myself...
i did my eng...until e vocab there...n fell aslp...figured i wld hv sum ling gan frm slping...haha...but apprently,i did get sum ling gan...haha...den woke up to write in e vocab...den slpt agn...cos veri tired n slpy...sumore got like 1hr more to e end to do summary...so i slpt...for abt 20min...hee...den woke up to do my summary...i wrote 162 words...hehe...exceeded by 2words...
den aft break got literature...
did my first 2 question...den slp...zZZzZzz...hee...den do secong ques...den all done liao...slp sumore...haha...lotsa ZzzZzzz for me today...haha....


jac was like so stressed by me...see me like so qing song lidat...slp n slp...she say everytime she look my way,my eyes are closed...haha...i stress her out man...haha...sorry ahbu..din mean to...hee...math i let u stress me lar...haha...

went for service today...
by myself...
smth rather shocking happened....
adrain actually cld tell tt i wasn't veri happy....
like nobody ard me cld ever tell tt i was unhappy...
like not even my parents.....
and along cums adrian....
he cld tell....
he knew tt i wasn't my normal self....
he asked if i was ok....
i told him i was...
but he insisted tt i wasn't ok....
he said tt he felt realie strongly tt i wasn't ok.....
he said he cld tell....
i was shocked....
even my closest frenz dunno anything if i dun tell dem....
and he knew....
i was dumbfounded....
i'm so happy to hv a fren like him....he's like my elder bro....*smiles*
thnx god i hv him....

i'm crying....
i'm tearing....
i'm hurting....
hu noes?
nobody.....

dyL dropped by dis morning...
slacked ard till aftnoon....
went NYP wif her to hand in sum CPF form....
den aft tt took a cabbie dwn to library...
met gui n clara n hazel n ice.....
studied awhile...
den came home...
supposed to take $$ to go gif aunty agnes....
but reached home....
headache....
damn jialat....
dyL ask me tell aunty agnes i pay tmr....
so tts wat i did....
stayed at home.....
feeling damn weak....
gosh...jelly man.....
my hands are trembling....
[sigh]


mama want me to go tuition...even in dis state...wth...dun let me take cab sumore...wants me to take bus...gosh...sumbody hlp me...sumbody gif me sum strength...i'm dying...my head is killing me...

tmr got no skol....
abit slack today....
today is mr ong's last day of lesson wif us...
so saddening....
aniwae,
had PE...
den took foto....
during PE...
my grp n i saw a rat!!!
omg lor...
we were among all e long long grass...
den dunno hu go jump jump....
den scared a rat out...
it went scrambling out of e field...
so funny...
den we were like following it....
it was a cute one tho.....
nice coat of fur....
looks cute....
den it crawled to e end of e field n dropped into e drain...
so poor thing....
cannot cum out liao....
aniwae....
had soccer game during PE....
great ól tingmei kicked e ball into my face....
hit-ed my jaw....
and it cracked....i heard a loud sound.....
gods....
so pain....
den got so many dragonflies....
den i kept screaming for ahbu....
haha....
funny sight.....
oh yes.....
i composed a nice sms today
during 1st n 2nd period of geog...
haha....inspired by yani...
and i wrote a letta for ahbu
during e 3rd and 4th period of geog...
haha....


home earli today...hopefully i can study today...i wanna study...

chinese and english ppr one yday...
ok i guess....
chinese oral today....
dunno how i did....
shi2 shi4 hua4 ti2 sucked.....
totally dunno wat to say...
had hou laoshi for first 2 segments...
den li laoshi for e shi2 shi4 hua4 ti2...
been veri upset today....
not too sure why oso...
-haiz-
i'm sad... ...
aniwae....
i'm all alone agn tonite...
mom's working....
dad's out....
[sigh]


friday no skol....pL gurls are happy....one more free day of studying for me...

i'm going to KL peeps....
i'm glad....
managed to tok to gui's mom....
and she allowed gui to go...
therefore...
gui n i will be gg to KL tgt...
from the 9th - 12th of june!!!
great...i needed the break....
4 days of no problems...
no unhappiness....
no parents.....
no curfews....
no quarrells....
just e 2 of us....
a few hundred kilometres away.....


aniwae...gui and i went down to church to do e paper work for e trip today...b4 tt wanted to bring her go eat beef noodles...but itz closed on tuesdays...like of all days lar...ok, nvm...den she ate fishball noodles n i ate spinach noodles....den went to church...tt pig is like so pig lar...so lazy to even cross e over-head bridge...den she shouted my name from e top of e bridge all e way down...gods...so malu can...den went into church,searched high n low for aunty agnes...she like too small to be found lidat...haha...finally found her...den we did e necessary ppr work and we were happy souls...haha...den slacked there cos it rained...aniwae e aircon so nice...toked there,slacked there,crapped there...folded paper cranes...den hlped aunty agnes shift stuff out frm a cupboard...cos dey wanna shift it to another room...shifted all e stuff liao...den we shifted e whole cupboard...tell u, tt damn thing is like so heavy lar...*faints*...den pushed n pulled...e whiteboard fell,almost hit my head...heng i siam in time...but e poor air-freshener got knocked n fell down....finally got it out e door...den realized it cant go out e corner...too long...den gui n aunty agnes n aunty kinlan all stuck sumwhere...i was e only one free..haha...so i went to get hlp...haha....den we decided tt we got no choice but to cut e stupid cupboard into 2...haha...e contractor will onli be there on thurs...so we move e cupboard back...more pushing n pulling...haha....den so tired lar can...sat there sumore...folded more cranes...and i realised tt dey can fly...haha...den hlp aunty agnes fold notices n put into envelope...den slack sumore den left church cos raining agn...i toked to gui...told her alot of things....den sat bus...she went home....

i'm left alone...mum will be late...dad dunno go where...-haiz-

studying at home today.....
ahbu came....
reached abt 11++....
gui n jeanice coming too i think....
dunno....
haha....
itz nice to study wif ppl....
more productive....
and not so boring....
haha......

aft service went study wif van n mich n juv n dyl....
we were at coffee bean....
so funny....
we were so crap la can....
luff n luff non stop....
den juv went to put e number tag into dyl's bag....
itz no. 5...
so funny....
den i ordered food...
den we shared....
dyl ate e sausage wif jam n egg n pepper n salt.......
so did juv n me....
haha.....
tasted abit disgusting....
but it was fun...
haha.....
aniwae i did abit of my math today....
not veri productive....
but still ok la...haha....
had a terrible headache tho...
[sigh]
aft studying....
went to dyl's hse....
actually for bbQ....
but....
rain.....
so her mama cooked e food instead....
haha....
korkor was there too....
hee....she say i look smaller...
haha...
*smiles*


i'm dizzy...i cant see clearly...everything ard me is moving,swaying...i'm weak...