was supposed to go running with bgf tday aft i came back..
but it turned out the onli one doing the running tday..
was my nose.. heh..
i think i caught the flu~ buGG.. =(
and anas has got a SEXY voice.. lolz
i think all those late nites are catching up wif us..

ericia n i did a v daring thing..
we sneaked out during lunch..
off to tekka mall to get my PARTY~!!! stuff.
so happi i got everything i needed.. =)
and i must say, i'm SOOOO thankfull i gt contacts to the helium supplier..
the shop at tekka like charges 100bucks for a 100-balloon helium tank?? and like extra 30bucks for a person to go and blow it up..(not tt i needed one..BUT STILL..).. and all these still DO NOT include the deposit for the tank itself.. *my goodness..thank god..* HAHA..
i shopped there like a lil kid in a candy store..
ppl who noe me will get wat i mean.. hee..
i know i know..
i've gt a weakness for all things cute and crafty.. heh..
at first, i think the shop's uncles and aunties thot ericia and i were fooling ard..they watched us like vultures over dead meat..
but i guess soon they realised tt we were meaning BUSiness.. HAHA!
and one nice auntie stepped up to me and offered me a basket.. =D
we skimmed briskly thru the shop..
combing thru the aisles, i picked up many things tt caught my eye..
soon, the basket was full, and it was time to go.. sadly~ =(
much to my surprise, it was much cheaper than i thot it wld be..
considering the amt of stuff i got that is..lolz..

we were back in skol by 3..
JUST in the nick of time.. hehe..
mr cheng came down to see us like within 15min of us returning from our lil "excursion"..or "site-visit" we wld like to call it.. =D

*Randomness Quiz* - i stole frm jin.. heh
What color is your nail polish, if any?:
hmm..depends on my mood.. mostly HOT red when they're short tho..french when its long.. =)
What brand of jeans do you wear the most?:
LEVIS..lolz..
What is your favorite black and white movie?:
hmm.. i duno yea.. =/
Do you really care that much about politicians and prostitutes?:
not reali.. heh..
Can you drink any type of liquor straight, what kind?:
there's lots..which one u wan? HAHA..
Who was your favorite character on Saved by the Bell?:
OMG. old skol man.. it like started the yr i was born n stopped airing when i was 4?? nope, no FAV..
Broccoli, yay or nay?:
YAY..haha..esp dipped in CHEEEZZEE.. *drools*
Did you ever like any thing you had to read in high school?:
yea.. clay marble..first time i cry frm reading a book..and wierdly, white rice seemed more yummy aftwards..lolz.. (those who've read it will know wat i mean..heh..)
What's your take on Christian rock?:
like it; dun love it tho.. i still prefer things s-l-o-w..
Who was your prom date?:
hmm..lets see, guihe n vann? lolz.. considering my ******** at tt time was busy duno where? HAHA.. n my dad caught me wif vann's gf..which got me into deep shit.. =(
Do you exercise daily?:
i walk... considered? HAHA.. FB twice a week..
Ever think about being a porn star?:
i'm not HOT enuf..LOLz
Have you ever thrown up on a date?:
i've thrown up in front of many ppl..but nt on a special date tho..*phew*
Are guys who wear pink hot or not?:
HOT.. onli real guys can carry off pink and look GOOD..lolz
What's your favorite quote from any movie?:
Jeremy: It's hard to resist the temptation of loving someone for the sake of being with someone, so I think you are really brave to wait for the right one to come along. People don't want to be alone. - the LEAP YEARS
Is it love or lust at first sight?:
i decline to comment..HAH..
Did you read the DiVinci Code or just watch the movie?:
i watched the movie..and read the first 30pg of the book...haha..on my way to KL with gui n bgf like 2yrs ago?? lol
What last night do you wish you could have?:
hmm..btw me and the person involved..HAHA
What's you favorite time of day?:
sunsets..they are a beautiful ending, regardless of whether the day was good or not..and its the start of a great nite!!
Are you addicted to anything?:
right now? currently? to my BED..and forever will be.. lolz
What kind of car airfreshner do you use, if any?:
abipure!
If you could have 3 wishes, what would they be?:
(1) to be happi..
(2) for everyone to be happi..
(3) to have as many wishes as i want..(why doesnt anyone think of this? HAHA)
Laptop or Desktop? What brand?:
BOTH..i'm a greedy girl..lolz
Do you still have all your grandparents?:
nope..and i miss my popo.. =(
Are you double-jointed anywhere?:
nah.. i'm not THAT flexible..
Favorite candle scent?:
nth too sweet..cinnamon for open areas..strawberry for my rm..hee
Do you collect anything?:
used to collect stickers and plasters..i still hv LOADS of them..
What's you favorite radio station?:
symphony 92.7..HAHA
CLASS 95
power98
Do you turn the bathroom light off when you leave?:
NOPE..ooops..
What's you current favorite pair of shoes?:
i miss my birks..damn my dad threw them away.. but i wan a pair of red heels.. hee.. eh, i nv ans the qn.. okok.. my fav now is my new brown palms..HEE..

i'm back to skol..
like finally?.. heh..
back to do the reports and drawings..
now, i'm thankful for softwares like revit and autocad..
however, unfortunately, i cant use it..
cos i dun freaking hv the exact measurements for the blocks..
HDB no floorplans..
TOWNCOUNCIL no floorplans..
den who have sia!! &#@% !!
aniwaes.. so tiring sia..
draw draw draw.. =/

i must be sufering frm some sorta split personality..
one moment i'm so chirpy and high..
the nxt i feel blue and down..
when i'm out wif the dudes and babes,
i can find the energy to smile n crap n joke..
but NEVER when i'm alone..
wat the heck is this man.. damn..
u make me crumble and fall.. u cause my skies to turn grey.. u make the rain fall, just as the tears do..

इ'म जुस्त न्प्व थे हैप्पी गर्ल अन्य्मोरे...
लिविंग इन अ फोग्ग, द्रेअदिंग एकाच डे अस आईटी कोमेस॥
इ जुज़ विष इ क्ल्द क्रय आउट लौद॥
वौल्ड अन्य्बोद्य करे?

been busy with technical surveys the past few days..
now my biological clock is such a MESS..
i slp late at nite, n wake up late in the morning..
been counting lights, measuring lighting lvls..
BUT
honestly, i'm so happi to be working with anas n rais for MP/SIP..
we juz hv so much fun and crap so much..
when i'm wif them, i seem to be able to forget everything/everyone else..
mayb cos they dun know me in depth? HAHA..
we juz hv our own fun and ignore everything else..
imagin this : me and 2 guys..spent like an hr in popular..crapping ard, fooling ard, and discovering new stuff..LOLZ.. (tts wat i call fun..haha)
can i say i'm happi when i'm with them? =)
mayb.
but truely? (it doesnt matter)
i juz wanna smile!
i juz wan everyone ard to smile!

did IGC wif kat yday morning..
the songs were great..
"this is the day"
"let us come together"
"through it all"
"
the adults were very responsive.. which was very encouraging..gg up on stage in front of so many hundreds of ppl was kinda intimidating at first, but seeing how responsive everyone were was very helpful.. =)
went for 915 service aft..
den went lunch..
POPcell ate at a place near yck CC..
aft which, most of them went to donate blood..
NOT ME of cos..heh
one day i shall overcome my fear of needles, but not yet i guess.. =(
aniwae, since "the usual ppl" weren't gona donate, we headed off..
chaochao left wif us too..
he gg home..
while alpha, jin, kat and me headed for THE CATHAY..
we gg to watch "made of honor"..
aft we got our tix, off to B&J we went..
i had my dope.. (cookie dough&chocolate therapy)
and was a happi kid aftwards..
the movie was great..lufter & tears, all in a single show..
i left awhile aft the show..
met my parents at IRAS for dinner..
JAP..

ಮಯ್ಬ್ ಥಿಂಗ್ಸ್ ವೌಲ್ದ್ ಬಿ ಬೆತ್ತೆರ್ ಇಫ್ ಇ ಕೌಲ್ದ್ ಹೇಟ್ ಯೌ

Damien told me a "story" today..
and i muz reali thank him for sharing it with me..
i shall share it with everyone else..
Damien: one day hor, there were 10 birds sitting on a branch..than a hunter came along, and wanted to shoot ALL 10 birds..
Me: uh huh..then?
Damien: so he aimed..and fired his shot.. but hor, as he was firing the shot.. his rifle shifted to the left.. in the end, onli the 3rd bird died.. how come?
Me: huh.. i duno..
Damien: u hv the entire 72 journey to think..i'll tell u only when i'm getting down.. lolx
Me: *thinkthink* aiya.. i reali cant think..
[[[[ a while later ]]]]
Damien: k la.. tell you.. because................................ the third bird K-PO.. stick his head out to see wats happening.. HAHAHA..
hmm..luckily damien was there to take bus wif me..
thnx mien.. =)

met korkor yday..she came by my hse to copy notes blah blah (if i know she gg to stay so long, i cld hv slpt later..HAHA)..den we went far east..lunched at LJS..yummy.. =D den we had waffles!! yummmmmmm.. gelare WAFFLES!>!>!>!>! we shared a choc-chip waffle with cookies&cream and cookie dough ice-cream.. *man zu man zu* finally i get to hv waffles on waffle day again!! hee.. (i onli ate it once on my life..believe it..lol) aft waffles, we took 16(smth) i cant rmb wat bus..haha..back to yck..she go running, i go hougang mit rais and anas and uncle cher.. =D
i was so bored waiting for anas and rais at hougang, i started scribbling on the pics korkor and i took in the bus..haha..(i love my viewty.. peek-a-BOO!

Finally..some progress with regards to our MP/SIP..
met uncle cher and we walked us thru wat to do etc etc.. =)
aft we were done, off to macs we went.. we had goals to set!!! HAHAs..

uncle cher taught us how to see lighting fixtures..


rais and me..lolx
anas, rais and me.. =D

TRUST
..a big word..
the foundation on which all relationships are built on..
family ties..
friendships..
romantic relationships..
without TRUST, everything will just tumble down..
the relationship will crumble..
the love will fade..
its a simple word, with profound meaning..
yet, its either u have it; or u dont..
there's no "in between", there's no grey region..
its simply YES or NO..

if u fucking dun trust me, den dun call me ur daughter..if u dun trust me, den dun bother to even ask me things..give me a SINGLE reason i gave u NOT to trust me..wad have i done to deserve this?!?! wake up and look around u, its not the 80s animore..i want my social life..unlike u, i want to have friends..

i feel fake..(i'm such a liar)
why do i always hv to hide how i am feeling?
why do i always hv to put on a false front?
why does it always hurt so much inside,
yet i smile even brighter on the outside?
i need someone who truely cares..
i need someone who truely bothers..
i've had it with putting other's feelings first..
i wanna hv the right to show my emotions too..
i dun give a damn..i GIVE UP..
love me or hate me, each and everyone of u can choose..
i've hidden too many tears, i'm drowning..
i've kept too many thots, i'm exploding..
i've shut out too many emotions, i'm saffocating..

juz back not long..
celebrated gege(huanwei)'s bday today..
dinner at "mussel guys"..
and den off to "harry's bar" we went..
drank and pooled..
totally no mood to play pool..
the game i had wif kok was so screwed..
wadeva wadeva wadeva..
i made the whole world unhappi..
but who's gona care how i'm feeling?
my life is freaking screwed up..
why muz everything crash down on me like dis??
why muz everything happen at the same time??
build a bear meeting at vivo in 6hrs..and work starts at PS in 10hrs..
gd luck to me man..

sorry to XXX.
sorry to gege, tt i juz had to break down and spoil the mood of everyone..
sorry to xXx, tt i cant keep a damn secret..
sorry to mummy, for coming back so late..

unexplainable..
uncontrollable..
unexpected..
the surge of emotions..
misunderstood..
misplaced..
the emotional girl..