came back frm ndp prac not long ago...had it at hq...b4 tt went to BK 4 lunch wif jac,ying,n 2 yuying ppl>>jeanice,grace...so qiao...her name oso called grace...oh well...ended prac abt 6+...den jeanice asked if i wanna go 4 dinner...so we went...but reached heartland,she sae she not hungry...so we din eat...walked mayb 15min den went off le...i came hm...she go her grandma hse...darling 2dae got bball...n i got ndp prac...so din get to meet her...miss her lots...

depression is reallie setting in...dunno y oso...juz feel invisible...i think hor...even if i juz die tmr...no one wld even realize tt i'm gone...itz not a materialistic thing...not tt nobody to pei wo...itz juz a feeling...deep inside...i've been feelin lidat 4 quite sum time...but in e past i wld b able to keep it inside...dunno y 2dae...juz can't hlp it...guess i'm tired of hiding it...tears keep streaming down my cheeks...i think i'm such a cry baby...hate dis side of me...but can't hlp it...getting too emotional 4 my liking...

i pray tt god will make tmr a betta dae 4 me n my frenz n e ppl tt i luv n care for...Amen.