Thursday, July 21, 2005
i freaking hell hate myself...i hate myself for being to dumb...i hate myself for not being able to get mad at anybody...dis feeling sucks...consider dis retribution?..i dunno...i dun care...wadeva...all i noe is tt i cant take it animore...i got enuff...i seriously got enuf of all dis nonsense...freak...i shld juz vanish frm e face of dis earth...i shld juz get out of everybody's life...i shld juz close off everybody else...if onli i cld get mad at somebody...if frm e veri start i cld onli throw a tantrum...if frm e veri start i cld onli hate her...things i wish i cld hv done, uptil now...still unable to do...i'm juz such a freaking dumb idiot...i'm nv trusting...
nv believing...nv depending...
not ever again...
not over my dead body...freak...dis feeling sucks....i want to hate...but i cant...i want to forget...but i cant...i want to get mad...but i cant...WHY cant i juz do these simple things????
hate myself cos all i noe how to do is cry by myself...dis is so dumb..
shades of colour in my monochrome world.. @ 7:12 PM
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