i'm feeling pathetic...
my life is pathetic...
i'm pathetic.....
conclusion, PATHETIC.

i realised smth..
the more i try for smth,i further i get from it...the more i want smth, even more chances tt i wun get it... the more afraid i am of smth, it juz will happen...
why am i alwaes e one hving to give?? why am i alwaes e one at e losing end?? why is it alwaes me?? mayb i'm doing smth wrong?? itz prob juz me...
i'm tired..worn out...
i hv no life..no zeal in life at all...
day to day for me has become a chore..a routine...
i dread waking up to e night sky..wondering wat has become of me...
where has e real me gone??
the smile i once had is gone..
stolen..by the ppl i live with... ...
the tears tt flow each nite...
the heart tt aches each time...
who wld noe???
NOBODY.

i'm afraid..
i'm weary...
i'm uncertain..
wat will happen in e future??
wat is gona happen to me??
wat if one day i juz snap...wat if one day i lose even e little tt i hv now???
then, wat will become of me???
..lost..unsure..lonely..afraid..
i put on e smiley cheerly front..keeping myself occupied..so as to not think and not hurt..living in self-denial,believing tmr will be a better day...wishing,hoping, praying..all for a better tomorrow...